Ayumi_Yamasaki's Xanga

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

Wed, 04 Jul 2007 01:57:51 GMT

It's Been A While!

Minasan, Konnichiwa..

I was contemplating on whether or not I should update this blog.
It's been a while, and no updates from me,
it's almost like the death of this blog & updating it would make no difference.

The thing is I've been busy this past couple of months.
Running around like a monkey doin everything from A-Z.
From compiling guest lists, printing them to sticker papers
to going for fitting for my wedding dress & choosing the wedding dais.
Sometimes it feels surreal.
Getting married in 16 days, but being busy like it isn't my wedding.

Sometimes I would feel like breaking down with too much things to do
and no one helping
But I swallowed it all & kept on moving
Even though I'm so dead tired inside.

Now with the dust a little settled, I have a little time to just
maybe organize my Bachelor/Bachelorette party, which I still don't know
what we'll be doin. I still have to do the planning, I still have
to pull it through & I still have to pay for everything.

Not that i'm complaining about getting married.
Everyone has told me that I looked a little cheerier & happier
ever since I announced my wedding dates.
I am happy, sincerely, just very worn out..

Can't wait for Bali..

Friday, February 16, 2007

Fri, 16 Feb 2007 05:46:49 GMT

+ + My Fate, Your Love + +

I still remember what he was like the first time we met.

His nickname in IRC. His long hair.When he came to my house.
At first, he was just a friend.
Someone who will only be a friend. Not the friend.

He came over to meet up my sister.They were best buddies.
At that time I wasn't dressed decently,
wearing only this short Japanese-schoolgirl skirt
with skinny tee (and no I wasn't doing anything
indecent)

I ran upstairs when he came, but I managed to greet
him on my way up

"Hi Raytzar!!"
"Hi!" He responded, confused, but friendly as always.

Sometimes I see him online and I would say Hi,
but I knew he was seeing someone and I was
seeing someone, so nothing happened between us.

When I went over to UK to complete my degree,
he was already there. He helped out my sister
to move all her junks to my room.

He was still another friend at the time.
Still a stranger to me.

But seeing that I'll be going to gigs with him and
hanging out at his place alot, I had to be friendly.
HAD. I actually dreaded it!

We went to our first gig together. It was
Smashing Pumpkin's last concert before they dismembered.
After the concert we became closer friends.
But I was still seeing someone else.
So we decided to stay as friends first.

But fate had a different agenda though.

Our friendship quickly matured to best buddies.
We had too much in common. Same understanding,
Same initials, same music preference..

Late November, I broke off with my (then) BF to be with him.

That was 7 years ago.
Until today I can't believe I'm wearing his engagement ring
Or that we're engaged.

Fate and time played an important role in my life.

I was accepted to Unitel for a premedia arts and science course but rejected the offer because Mom wanted me to be near (way to go momma!).
So I took Computing Science in A.P.I.I.T.
The course was a twinning programme; I could either complete it in U.K, Australia or here in Malaysia.
I chose to do it in Staffordshire, England where I then met him.

At that moment, I was actually waiting for the right time to get out of a very turbulent relationship.

If I had gone with Unitel, I would most probably still be in the turbulent
relationship, feeling more suicidal and depressed than ever and maybe never found love.

Fate brought me to him. But the Almighty laid the path for me to follow.

Let it go & let god decide.

Saturday, January 27, 2007

Sat, 27 Jan 2007 15:23:24 GMT

+ Captain Planet & The Japanese Wannabe +

Today's Core Banking Bowling Fiesta was pretty cool. We, "Captain Planet & The Planeteers" managed to get the 9th spot.I tell you, that's pretty good for a team with two veteran longkangers. Gambate ne me!!

There's this one abang dude from CIF who keeps ngendenging at me, as if coaching me how to bowl.If he ain't married, it doesn't bother me that much. But a dude with a wife and kid really shouldn't be hanging out with other girls. Especially hot ones. Like me..*pstttttt* (this is when I put my finger on my tongue and touch my bootay and say "Psstttttt" as if i'm on fire. Get it? :D )

But seriously man.. Why are married men gatal ? It's an unexplainable mystery.

Anyhow, we bowled 3 straight games, we had a prize ceremony, we had fun.

After the game, went off to KLCC to soak a little action: a spot of shopping that is. On our way we bumped into ouji san Ng, our President of the Japanese-Wanna-Be club. So we headed to Kinos to get a load of Takuya & Kat-tun, watched Sinking of Japan & ate sushi.

12 hours out. And parking fees totalling to RM23.00!!! Madness!

Thursday, January 25, 2007

Thu, 25 Jan 2007 04:55:10 GMT

+ + My Assassin + +
Depression's got a new name. Me.
My stinky foul mood got even worse this wee morning.
After all the stress from home & work, the deprivation
of sleep & (good)food and feeling like shit because of the yoga,
I had to deal with the Crap Lady.

Crap lady is THE security administrator.
We're not talking about security guards & badges & chotis here.
We're talking about the high-tech network security access that is
remotely related to my job.

Her name is NORHAYATI. And her job is to assign
a security class for our dialog screens. It's like giving a
visitor's pass to visitors so they can access certain floors.
But put that in an IT environment, and that is what she is doing.
She gives access to certain programs(Think: Floors) for certain Users(Think : Visitors).

She's a self-righteous dudette with a fierce face to match.
She never ever smiles. Ever.
And probably never cracked a joke in her entire life either.

Today I had a request.
She read my request.And said:-

"What is the security class for this menu?"
(Funny why she's askin me when she's the one assigning it)

As I wasn't sure about it, I had to call her back &
before she put down her phone, she said in the most cynical tone ever:-

"Next time make sure there's no errors"

DUH. Like aku suka suka buat salah. Let's do this:-
"LALALALA. hey aku nak buat salahlah. Meh aku letak salah nama menu."

Biyatch!

So I checked on the menu she wanted, found out that I was indeed
CORRECT & I called her back:-
Me: "Kak Yati, I can see the MGMMAINT in the ADSA"
(pls read this statement as if you understand what I'm talking about)

pause. silence

Dudette with Attitude Problem: "Well, I don't have the records here. How come there's no records here?"
Me: "Uhhhh.. I don't know. I'm not doing the security thing"
DWAP: (checks on something) Oh you put it here in response.It's not supposed to be here.It's misleading
Me: "What? But i've done it so many times and you never said anything about it"
DWAP: (silence) Next time don't do it.*hangs up*

WAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!

So she changes her procedure whenever she pleases.
This is Great.Just Great!

And she's just 1 of the millions of disgruntled ex-employees
who's out to pulverize any remaining Mebengkers of
their living will.

Don't get me started on the Migration Team!!
I swear, Choong's sole purpose in life is to give me a heart attack.

My chest hurts every time I deal with these clowns.
At the rate I'm going,I would probably have to dig my
own grave, lie in it and ask someone to kindly cover
my entire body with dirt.

STRESS GILE!!!

Countdown to Resignation: 9 months.

Friday, January 12, 2007

Fri, 12 Jan 2007 03:12:59 GMT

+ A Chapter Closed +

Yoohoo!!!

Finally I'm able to update the blog after a whirlwind
of projects & engagement preparations.

What's new is now I'm engaged to my boyfriend of
6 years, Mr Rambo. Of coz it's the greatest feeling
in the world, being able to finally move to the next
step after a long time. And blessed. Some friends
have also reached the 6 years mark but did not
make it to the engagement phase, so I'm ecstatic that
my jodoh is still with him.

The engagement affair was like I dreamed it would be.
My handmade hantaran, DIY Pelamin & staircase decor.
Though a little disappointed that a couple of important
friends could not make it & caterers were being a couple
of ass wipes & came in late, but I'm pretty happy with
how things turned out.

Thanks to my kakak for that extra special sexy touch
on the staircase. Oooh la la!! Eric Leong pun kalah u!

And Pak Don Belli for the oh-so-sexy Pelamin.

Watch out Pak Abu. Here comes Pak Don Belli..

Friday, December 01, 2006

Fri, 01 Dec 2006 08:24:46 GMT

+ Becoming Mrs Rambo +

The only thing in my head rightnow is the engagement.

Yeslah baby, I'm getting engaged!!

*Woohoo*

I've been preparing for it since early October.
I'm making my own hantaran coz being this geeky craftsperson,
I must include what I made with my bare hands in this occassion.

What the hell, everyone has said how beautiful my hantarans are.

Thank god for crafting talents.

I decided to take on a professional photographer coz
I wanted the best pictures. No offence
to friends who have voluntereed to take pictures, you guys
can go ahead and take the pictures of coz. The more the merrier..

I always say that a true camwhore
won't let any opportunity to be photographed pass by.

And it's not everyday you get engaged kan? So you gotta go with a big bang!

The photographer is not bad. His packages are pretty cheap.
Plus, he's throwin in some crazy treats in the package & it's pretty much worth it.
Initially I wanted to go for this guy, but decided to save
him for the big day.

As for my door gift, I found this pretty cool website selling wedding
favours online. Wicked.

She sent the stuff over last weekend & I'm pretty pleased..

What's left now is the engagement dress & a makeup artist.

Oh and food. God knows what would happen if there's Don Belly & no food

Then I'm all set.

Thursday, November 23, 2006

Thu, 23 Nov 2006 07:28:27 GMT

+ From Ayer Keroh To Papua New Guinea +

Hi babes..

Been busy with a few projects:- mainly the activities for opening a few new branches across Malaysia.

Bangga siut. Aku la yang bertungkus-lumus buat nie...

Banana, my ambititious supervisor is loading us projects by the tonnes.

Personally, she's a wonderful individual. Well-mannered & always says "Please" and "Thanks" when she wants us to do something. When she knows we've got things sorted, she will say "Very good". But sometimes she can be overly ambitious.Just to please the big piggy.And psychotic. Probably the time of the month.

I definitely like her better than Apek Gile. He has no sense of courtesy whatsoever. Like for instance, I went thru a whole lotta trouble just to pool some money & got him his wedding gift, and he didn't even say thanks. Nothing.

Enuff bitchin.back to Banana. Had a chat with her yesterday. Seems that Yip yip Horray will be off to Cambodia next year to support for the swift application.

"And Rahayu..you will support for Papua New Guinea" she said excitedly.

"What??? Really??? " I was shocked. Damn man!! Papua New Guinea!! I get to travel elsewhere. What a great opportunity this is.

"That is provided you're still in the unit right? If you're an Auditor next year then someone else will have to go"

"Ohh yea........" I was dead in my words. I felt my heart falling. Suddenly I remembered that submitted application for an IT Auditor.

And suddenly I'm having second thoughts on the job I applied.

It's been pretty cosy here. I have a great seating position which enables me to surf the net full screen, away from the big bosses. I have great teammates that are fun & vibrant & tight with each other. My creative talents are recognized by the PLs and UHs; I always end up getting the decor job or something related. And if it permits, I get to travel. To Papua New Guinea! Though I've never been there and don't know how it's gonna be. But hell,I get to travel.

And as for IT Auditor, it will definitely open a path to other companies. Companies that I couldn't apply before this. IBM,Accenture, Kulicke & Soffa, LogicaCMG..the list goes on.

Comfort (& Travelling Priviledges) vs. Career Opener (Way out of hell hole)

FIGHT!

Thursday, November 02, 2006

Thu, 02 Nov 2006 12:13:02 GMT

+ What Happened In Genting, Stays in Genting +

Back to work after 11 days of holiday, the itch to move to another company came upon me again when I heard abang mantoi (supplier porn terbesar mebeng) resigned 24 hours. After 13 years.

As if a sign from god, the words "Various Positions: IT Auditors wanted" flashed insanely in our e-Portal.

I clicked the link, I read the requirements & I want that job.

Unfortunately, to apply for an internal post, one needs to get ones superiors' John Hancock (Read:Signature) for approval. And Ms Piggy conveniently went on leave for 8 straight days.

That crazy ho.

I'm getting that job. No matter what it takes. Even if I have to dance naked around a group of VP's & AVP's chanting the magical words "ChuwamambaHeartBopping HuyaBagaCookCookTwo!!"

Time to embrace my batak-tribe rituals.

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We made a mad dash to Genting at 9pm last friday night just because we had nothing to do.

We had coffee for an hour and a half and left. We reached KL at 2 in the mornin'.

Kalu orang tanye.....

Orang : Hari Raya ke-empat buat ape?

Saya : Minum kopi kat Genting

Orang : ???

Haaa minum kopi kat tempat sejuk sedap nieee haaaaa..

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Ryan Star is coming to KL this 16th. I don't want to miss that.

Sape mau pegi dengan saya sambil orgasm mendengar lagu "Back Of Your Car?"

It is worth every ounce of your female juices. Trust me!

Monday, October 02, 2006

Mon, 02 Oct 2006 14:48:16 GMT

+ My Inner Ayu-ness +

My level of busy-ness has reached its max that I could not cope
with work and life.

When this stupid moneygram project rolls out..
Life would be much much better.

*Moneygram = Project untuk mentransfer duit dari satu
bank ke satu bank yg lain internationally that normally
would take a few days (using Foreign Telegraphic Transfer)
now would only take a few minutes.

1 freakin month untuk siap project nie. 1 month.

Patutlah muka yip mcm panda.

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All this stress has made me a sloppy communicator.

I keep getting misunderstood by everyone.

Like when i said:-

"Wake up! Kata nak pegi warehouse sale"

What they heard:-
"Wake up! Dah lama sangat tido sampai tengahari"

Or when I said:-
"Jangan ikut. Rasa cam sales girl ikut jerk"

what they heard:-
"Pegi tunggu bawah lah .you ni macam sales girl jerk"

Even mom pun thought I was mocking her when I said
she had her hands full.

*Sigh* ... Kesian aku. Penat tau.

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Got bonus moolah. Alhamdullilah this year I'm no longer
the victim of the quota crap they're doing.

The moolah came in at the right time lah. When i need it
terribly for raya. Tapi tak pueh ati la Ms Piggy dapat
"Exceeded". So her bonus this year is RM27,000.

Joreen (boss lagi atas dr Ms Piggy) however got RM42,000.

Gila. Bangang2 pun dapat gak RM27k.
Let's all be ass kissers and get ourselves thousands of
bucks. Ka CHING!!!! $$$$$$$

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Semalam pi CD Shopping with Mr Rambo. Bought like 19 (iye
sembilan belas) CDs atas desakan Jefri (din).

Today i found a quaint little cd shop behind the row
of shophouses and found some pretty cool cds there.

So saje gatal beli CDs (again).Bought To Die For,
Sins of Thy Beloved & Therion.

Aku rasa cam tengah berlakon cite horror plak with
this Sins of Thy Beloved tengah main kat background

Not my cuppa tea.
But not bad. Better than that Therion CD

Who wants this Therion cd? Boleh ke aku takut nak
dengar?

Oh shit. Sins of Thy beloved nie ada part minah nie
gelak mengilai. Scary shit.

Takutlah nak dengar.

Friday, August 25, 2006

Fri, 25 Aug 2006 18:05:39 GMT

+_+ The Reason For Not Sniffing +_+

Coming down with flu now.

I always do that to myself. Exert my body until it breaks down & I catch a cold or a fever. My immune system has been brilliant for the past 9 months, so I reckon it's probably because of the late night boozing & partying.

Just kidding. Gigging & working laa..

Memula INXS..(free tix,yes i must mention that)

Oi Mate! Take off your shirt now!! Woohoo

Pastu Sheila On 7..

A wild night out with two sexy boys..

But ditched both of em for an even sexier hunk (hubba hubba!)

*Bie,it's like Ozzfest only hotter. and with indons. hehehe

The partying crowd (cewah macam ramai pun!)

Then went back at 11.45 to celebrate Abang Ipar's birthday!

The Pasangan Pengantin & an unidentified belly hehehe..

Conclusion: Gigging may relief you of stress but with no rest, the body kenot take it then u sure get demam one..